humbled and loving it

well... if you know me, you know that i'm certainly not great at keeping in touch with people. i've begun to recognize that it's rooted in selfishness. oh, how selfishness is written all over my life, and it seems the older i get, the more i see the selfishness wrapped around me. i have glimpses of my past, and remember the child i once was - i dont know if this is normal or not, but there are things about my childhood - parts of my character - that i miss. it keeps coming back to this scripture that i've read so many times

Yes, and I will rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and the help of the Spirit of Jesus Christ this will turn out for my deliverance, as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain. If I am to live in the flesh, that means fruitful labor for me. Yet which I shall choose I cannot tell. I am hard pressed between the two. My desire is to depart and be with Christ, for that is far better. But to remain in the flesh is more necessary on your account. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain and continue with you all, for your progress and joy in the faith... ~Philippians 1:18-25

It amazes me how there are so many layers of meaning in scripture, the more you seek, the more layers continue to be revealed. My mind has been swirling around the concept of living for another person's progress and joy in the faith. What does that mean? and what does that look like? what does it mean for that to drive every action of my day? feel free to ponder this with me.