poor reminders..

ok so as if i needed reminding again... today was yet another reminder of many things: my expectations are ridiculously high, i am too hard on myself, i dont just lose confidence when i dont know what i'm doing - my confidence completely disappears, i am an emotional girl, it pains me to live in this world, music is my drug of choice through which i escape from everything. i get frustrated when i feel like i just want it to be friday night. i feel like i'm wasting so many days. that's all..