oh the future, oh today!

what a time in life this is. i've spent a fair portion of today thinking about so many things - too many to even remember! thinking about old friends that i have so much in common with, where our lives have us today, and where they might have us in the future. in particular, today my mind has been on my dear friend Christina. she's in germany right now. actually, she's been living there most of the past year and is back for another year. she is such a cherished friend, even if it's been months and months since i've gotten to talk to her, and many months beyond that since i've seen her. i've thought about if it would be possible to go visit her, sometime in the future.
oh the future!
i was writing her a letter today (because real mail is still a great treasure!) and was just telling her how i've been reading the gospel according to john in these most recent days, and it is great! i have no idea what the future has in store, and we all know that i'm not one to set long range goals (or any goals really!), but i said to her 'when i stop and remember where i'm at and how God has been at work in me, i just overflow with joy and hope and ambition and excitement. it's odd, i dont know what the future holds and yet i feel so strongly about it.' it's truly something that i cannot explain.
oh today!
my day to day life is a continual battle - to go to bed early, get up on time, to stop eating the bad foods, to exercise, to turn off the tv and READ my bible! to write old friends, to stay positive at work and to work hard. to give people the benefit of the doubt and put myself out there. to make friends. to keep looking in the mirror and seeing a beautiful woman made by God rather than seeing my self doubts. today is hard, but it is so good!